A Rude Awakening @ 220 lbs

I woke up this morning, stood on the scale and it read "220.8".

Unacceptable.

Let this be a lesson to anyone traveling the weight loss road. I'm disappointed in myself because I know I have the will power, but I got so caught up in boo-hooing about the overload of stress that I stopped exercising and started binge-eating. Where does that get me? It gets me 5 pounds heavier and pissed off.

Step 1: Eating better...alot better. No extra sugar and no binge eating from now on.

It's hard, it really is. Being so mentally exhausted takes a toll on your body, and it's hard to focus on exercise and eating right. I've gotta focus now!! Wish me luck, I'll need it!

Quick Updates

My work schedule is ridiculous right now, (64 hours this week...I know, right?) which has directly effected my workout plan, actually its at a complete hault right now, and I cant wait to get back to the gym! Working so many hours and so many odd shifts, mixed with no exercise, has me exhausted physically and mentally. Being in the gym, music blarring, sweating my ass off----that's MY release. It's the only time I get to be completely alone and "in my own world". I take out all my stress and anxiety out on something that will benefit my body---so when I dont get to exercise, I'm a mess...nothing seems to balance itself out!
I have about 3 more days of work/training, so I will be back to the gym in no time! I'll happily update!

(Gotta get back to class....training for one of our new systems started yesterday and ends tomorrow, so that's where I'll be!)

Am I failing?

[sigh] Alright, here's the thing. I'm aware that weight loss is a process and you'll have ups and downs. I'm also aware that if I keep up with eating pizza and sweets for days at a time that I won't get anywhere with my weight loss....

I've followed the workout plan for two weeks, but with my current work schedule, I'm thinking I might have to create another plan. Ugh! I know once I'm back on track with eating healthier, I'll start to see the weight come off again, so I shouldnt be so hard on myself, but still. I miss the gym. I havent gone in two days, and my body knows something is going on. I've been tossing and turning all night (or day) when I'm sleeping, I'm just outta whack for some reason! Blek :/

I know I can do better, and I will. I have to.

Story of My Life :)

Good Morning! It's Saturday!

I woke up bright and early to complete my exercises before work. Today's exercises were squats, followed by bicep curls, skier's (which is a tricep exercise), wide leg planks and shoulder presses. No cardio today, which is totally fine with me, my muscles needed two days of rest :)

I havent had ANY weight loss this month. I've been fluctuating between 215 lbs -220 lbs!! WHAT!! I'm not gonna lie, I know EXACTLY why I've had no weight loss this month, and I will share them with you, not only because I want to be an example for what NOT to do, but also because I know I'm not perfect, and no matter how far into the weight loss process I am, I still have plateaus and I still struggle with eating the wrong foods and bingeing.

What NOT to do when trying to lose weight 101 :

    Since the beginning of April, I have had cheesecake, cupcakes, chocolate and cookies. For almost three months I was super strict on myself, cutting out most of the sugar in my diet, and only having desserts once in a blue moon...and now I know why I had to be so strict. No matter how much will power I think I have, give me ONE cookie, and I'm back a second and third time reaching for more. It's insane! I've got another week until pay day, and when that day comes, I HAVE to buy everything I was buying in the beginning of the diet. More lettuce, brown rice, chicken, flavored teas, etc etc. I've gotta get my body back on track! If I don't see 214 on the scale soon I'm gonna flip out! :)

Week 2 Completion.

It's Friday Friday Friday! I'm almost finished with week 2 of the workout plan. I've already walked/jogged/ran more this week than I did the first week, so that gets a thumbs up (insert thumb here!). I think I'll use today as my rest day, mainly because I'm at work for the next 8 hours and didnt do any of my thigh/ab/arm exercises today. Woopsie. BUT, that's why I have a rest day! I would normally use Sunday as a rest day, but I'm off work that day, so I'll do my long walk instead. Speaking of long walk, I wanna shoot for 3+ miles. Yesterday I did over 2 miles, but I would really like to push for 3 miles in one workout session. We shall see how it goes! Stay tuned!

Oh, Happy Easter Everybunny!

So, it was the perfect day to sleep and relax, home alone on my "rest day". I was puppy-sitting my sisters dog, and since I had to work, the boyfriend went to his parents and I chilled out and watched Hairspray and Golden Girls with Max, the cocker spaniel. Now, that's what I call a rest day! Tomorrow is the start of week # 2 on the new workout plan! I can't wait to get back on the treadmill!


p.S. almost 2 pounds lost this week! I can't seem to get out of the 215-217 range. Yes, I'm STILL 215. Argh. But anyways, I feel stronger and my arms are slimming up and toning, so I'm about 80% happy with my results this week! Plus, I know I'm gaining a little muscle, so that may have an effect on it.....hmm. *!Toodles!*